Four.

Today we celebrated our son, Patrick’s, 4th birthday. Four. If I’m being honest, I think this has been the toughest birthday yet. I’ve very much felt the pull of life moving on without him, so today has been rough. I almost didn’t take Stitch to “school” this morning. We were very late, but we made [...]

Making Holiday Magic after Loss

I've been talking a lot about the magic of the holiday season this year. I feel it in me, and I see it in my daughter's eyes. Each night, she opens her Advent present so carefully, so expectantly, so delightfully. It's precious. I want to bottle these moments. But, if I was to be really [...]

By |2017-12-20T16:39:54+00:00December 12th, 2017|Family, Grieving, Parenting, Parenting After Loss, Patrick, Stitch|0 Comments

Somewhere Over the Rainbow: Not Every Rainbow After Loss is a Baby

I have always loved Somewhere Over the Rainbow. I’d probably choose it as my life’s lullaby. It brings comfort and hope. Each time I hear the song, it calms me. In fact, I’ve collected every version of the song that’s been recorded. I currently have 15 versions on my iPhone. At my wedding, I danced [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:07:58+00:00June 22nd, 2015|Family, Grieving, Patrick|2 Comments

Stable

Stable: “adj. Resistant to change of position or condition; not easily moved or disturbed.” Stable: “adj. Maintaining equilibrium; self-restoring.” Stable: “adj. Consistently dependable; steadfast of purpose.” Stable: “adj. Not subject to mental illness or irrationality” (Wordnik). I never thought stable, in any of its definitions, would describe me. Yet, it is exactly the word my [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:08:45+00:00January 8th, 2015|Grieving, Just Life, Thursday Quote|0 Comments

Thursday Quote: Personal Battles to Unique Stories

Several events over the last couple of years, including the death of Patrick, have really rocked my view of the people of the world. Each time one of these events occurs, the thought that sticks out in my brain is, "Be kind; everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." (Side note: interestingly, this quote is attributed [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:03+00:00November 13th, 2014|Grieving, Thursday Quote, TTC After Loss|0 Comments

A Good, Cathartic Cry

**Spoilers for Season 3 of Call the Midwife, given for context After Patrick died, we really put ourselves in a protective bubble with our TV and movie distractions. The DVR filled, because we didn't know what new episodes would set us off. We watched a lot of re-runs--Castle, Bones, Veronica Mars, Buffy--and movies in our library. [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:03+00:00November 4th, 2014|Grieving, TTC After Loss|0 Comments

Capture Your Grief – Day 16. Retreat

Capture Your Grief Prompt: Day 16: RETREAT. After yesterday which is probably one of the most emotional days for our community, it is important to take time out to protect your own heart. If you are an active member in our community and belong to one or more support groups, caring for others as well as [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:03+00:00October 28th, 2014|Capture Your Grief Project, Grieving|0 Comments

Capture Your Grief – Day 25. Mother Earth

Capture Your Grief Prompt: Day 25: MOTHER EARTH. We as a community love to do things in memory of our children. Today I wanted to do something to honour our children’s spirits and I wanted this to be something that helps our Mother Earth. Planting a tree is a meaningful way to remember our children. It [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:03+00:00October 25th, 2014|Capture Your Grief Project, Grieving|0 Comments

Capture Your Grief – Day 15. Community

Capture Your Grief Prompt: Day 15: COMMUNITY. As a wave of light makes its way around the world today, we take some time out to honour and remember our children. It is a day of remembrance and a day of awareness. What does this community mean to you? Where would you be without it? What would you like [...]

By |2016-10-13T17:09:10+00:00October 25th, 2014|Capture Your Grief Project, Grieving|0 Comments
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